[All] Apologies

[Louisette Lanteigne]

Hello everyone

I cannot proceed further to assist with planning processes at the local level. It's too much for me to take. Sending me to speak on any project involving Activa is sending a lamb to the slaughter and I cannot do it.  First there was a man speaking of how council bullies the public and how the views of citizens means nothing and it just brought back all sorts of hell I've endured. It destroyed what composure I had well before I spoke. I tried desperately to stay on topic and made it right to the end of my notes when the acting chairman interjected and demanded I complete my closing statements. As soon as I uttered the first syllable he interjected and he did this again and again and again. The man was bullying me. I could not get a word in edgewise and I simply snapped. All the far, all the pressure of holding in my views on Activa burst open. I could not contain myself. The car crash, the lawsuits, the threats all just overwhelmed me beyond. I am
 terrified of these people. It was like post traumatic stress. I could not find my way out of the pain. I was trapped in it to such an intensity. I need help to deal with this. 

I sent a written apology to council and provided them with this information below and what is in the attachments to show the fear I have is based on reasonable concerns. 

According to an Internal BKA document from 2000, the Calabrian 'Ndrangheta had already expanded it's operations to include points throughout Germany. Investigators believe that the Mafia's bases in Germany are used primarily for clandestine Financial Transactions involving money laundering. 
http://www.spiegel.de/international/germany/vendetta-on-the-rhine-a-mafia-wake-up-call-a-500785.html

It continues in the attachments.

Theo if you can remove me from the GREN list for one month I would greatly appreciate it.  I really need the break from this stress. 

Lulu
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